I wonder.

  • Sometimes I wonder.

    Why am I so hopeful?

    How do i constantly see the good in people? despite...how the world so desperately wants me to forever see the bad.

    I have all the reason to hate everything. and Yet I don't


    Is it because I've lost so much? but if i was any other person...that'd make me distant...Angry at the world of "My circumstances"

    In truth, I guess it's because I don't want to be like that.

    I don't want to be angry

    I don't want to be depressed

    I don't want to be the guy that forever closes off everyone and yet will still dream of being understood.

    I want to be open

    I want people to see

    that sure it isn't easy

    But I have to be me...

    Because why lie?

    Why pretend?

    What's the point?

    who am I pretending for?

    Who am i hiding from?

    Does any care about masks?


    No ones.

    So why wear one?

    I'm tired. 

    So very tired. 

    I wish I was in the right mind to elaborate

    But i'm exhausted. 

    I see all reasons

    and None of them stick

    Dare claim ones life is harder

    Dare claim ones circumstances are more crippling

    and I will silence that myth.

    Within seconds.



    I'm tired

    so very tired.